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发帖数: 1 | 1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vx2u5uUu3DE
FYI:
Probably I should be a writer if that can money. I like to write. Do you
still buy book? Candy Peter's book sell no money. She gave me three copies
and I have never read one page. I know that is important to her but mean
nothing to me. But I did get inspiration from her. I still call her. Now let
me write my life because I just eat two eggs and feel fool now. 吃饱了撑着。
In 1994, I didn't enter the college I dreamed of. I guess that is my
depression start. On my 20th birthday party, I told everybody: I will be a
graduate student. Please be award that I was a 大专生。 I did it in 1999.!
!!! I made my promise. 5 years!!!!!! During that time, my friends get a lot
of fun. But all I did for that 5 years was study, study study and run run
and run!!!
What did you do when you were 19 years old -24 years old? Did you get sex?
Did you get relationship? . I got nothing!!!
On September 23rd of 1999, my mom was murdered in Beijing. I didn't cried
when I saw her body shrieked in a transparent box. When I read the first
page of the stranger by Albert Camus. I said to myself: Wow, I am not alone.
I lose my thought. Now let me listen to Bon Jovi's second song: Livin' On A
Prayer
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lDK9QqIzhwk
The motivation for me to write this essay is I want to ask myself if I can
move on from losing my children. I remember Josh' s mom, Andrea said to me:
My children is my life. I know that is an exaggeration. In China babies
girl babies were abandoned. How can people are so different?
Can my career, Danio,Inc substitute/replace my children in my life?
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