q***8
发帖数: 6 | 1 这是老乔也是我姥姥去世那天写的， 不好意思是英文。。。同学们如果觉得好的话我
可以自行翻译的说。。。
Oct. 5, 2011, 3:39 pm. I was sitting on the terrace outside the
library, chatting with a teammate and enjoying the beautiful fall sunshine.
My mom emailed. Grandma died, she said.
My grandma was born in 1914. She died at the age of 97. A very long,
painful death. I was sad, but I was also relieved. Finally it was over.
This is called "closure".
When I was in primary school, she came to live with us for a few years. She
was in her seventies back then. A very clean, communicative and high power
lady. She would command my mom: "Uncle has come to visit us from far away.
We should send him off with generous gifts." My mom would obey without
any objection. I remember my dad was sometimes pissed by her authority.
But the old lady carried on, fearlessly.
But she was scared of death. She would teach me how to sew things as girls
should do, while telling me her fears. "What a wonderful world... when you
die, all these colors, smells, sounds have nothing to do with you. You die
alone, going to darkness... what a scary thing..." she would murmur. She
died more than 20 years after having those agonizing thoughts about death on
her mind.
I went home after an exhausting day at school of team meetings and review
sessions. I told the girls, "great grandmother died." "Oh, just like
grandpa did?" They asked. "Would she also be burned and put into a little
box?" The girls experienced my father's death. So at least they know what
it is. I didn't. My father's death was the first and only one that I
experienced among my loved ones, ever. The feeling of holding your loved
one's ash in a box. Can't describe how painful it is.
I decided to take a nap before reviewing my accounting notes for tomorrow's
quiz. I woke up around 9:30 pm and looked at my phone. Steve Jobs died.
I don't know why sadness suddenly hit me.
I had begged the lord to let my grandma go for months, if not years. I don't
want to die like she did. I would have ended my own sufferings a long
time ago.
I also don't think I care that much about Steve. Yes, I will probably end
up working for the company and I lived in Cupertino for the entire summer.
Yes, I saw him dragging his almost fleshless body across the Apple campus.
Yes, they once told us that he would speak to us and then canceled last
minute. But still, sadness hit me more than it should have.
I don't know why I started browsing all the things that Steve once said.
Things like follow your heart. Things like find what you love, both for
your personal life and for your career, and don't settle. Things like stay
hungry, stay foolish. Things like what if tomorrow is the last day of your
life. Tears almost went down.
I've been criticized lately for focusing too much on "me". But I also know
that I've been ignoring "me" for years and hence I was not happy. Most
importantly, I know that I've been trying to find happiness and I know how
it feels when I find it, just as Steve put it.
My grandma lived 97 years. That's wayyyyyy too long for me. My father lived
60 years. That's about right. Steve lived 56 years, a bit too short, but
length is not what counts. It's intensity that counts. I am 33, and don't
plan on living very long considering my life style and my emotional
fluctuations. Say I am half way through. Then tomorrow, tomorrow is the
first day of the other half of my life.
I want to live my life to its fullest. I want to be with the ones I love,
and do what I love. I will not settle. I will not try to fool myself again
by pretending that I am happy when I am actually not. I will not work for
money or fame. I will not care about what others think and what it should
be. I will listen to my heart.
My daughter taught me today the motto of North Carolina, "Esse Quam
Videri"---"To Be Rather than To Seem". Very deep. For the other half of my
life, I'd rather be happy than seem happy. | b******s
发帖数: 5365 | 2 Great article, very inspiring. Thanks for sharing.
"I want to live my life to its fullest. I want to be with the ones I love,
and do what I love. I will not settle. I will not try to fool myself again
by pretending that I am happy when I am actually not. I will not work for
money or fame. I will not care about what others think and what it should
be. I will listen to my heart. " | I*****y
发帖数: 6402 | 3 wow, very good writing. Mind me wishing you a happy birthday? life is a
jouney that never offers a way to return.
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She
power
【在 q***8 的大作中提到】
: 这是老乔也是我姥姥去世那天写的， 不好意思是英文。。。同学们如果觉得好的话我
: 可以自行翻译的说。。。
: Oct. 5, 2011, 3:39 pm. I was sitting on the terrace outside the
: library, chatting with a teammate and enjoying the beautiful fall sunshine.
: My mom emailed. Grandma died, she said.
: My grandma was born in 1914. She died at the age of 97. A very long,
: painful death. I was sad, but I was also relieved. Finally it was over.
: This is called "closure".
: When I was in primary school, she came to live with us for a few years. She
: was in her seventies back then. A very clean, communicative and high power
| h****i
发帖数: 5308 | 4 It was my first time to realize death when my grandpa died about ten years
ago. I was shocked to see his pale face and how the other relatives behaved.
He was in my dreams many times in these years and each time, I woke up with
tears.
Now, I just had a baby. I start to think about death again but in a more
positive way. I wish I could be in my twenties forever but as I watch my
baby growing everyday, I know that's impossible. It seems that time flies
faster and faster. I think I can slow it down if I could live in peace with
myself. | C*****e
发帖数: 2102 | | l*******1
发帖数: 128 | 6 good
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She
power
【在 q***8 的大作中提到】
: 这是老乔也是我姥姥去世那天写的， 不好意思是英文。。。同学们如果觉得好的话我
: 可以自行翻译的说。。。
: Oct. 5, 2011, 3:39 pm. I was sitting on the terrace outside the
: library, chatting with a teammate and enjoying the beautiful fall sunshine.
: My mom emailed. Grandma died, she said.
: My grandma was born in 1914. She died at the age of 97. A very long,
: painful death. I was sad, but I was also relieved. Finally it was over.
: This is called "closure".
: When I was in primary school, she came to live with us for a few years. She
: was in her seventies back then. A very clean, communicative and high power
| r*******y
发帖数: 7108 | | m*********s
发帖数: 64 | 8 not understand
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She
power
【在 q***8 的大作中提到】
: 这是老乔也是我姥姥去世那天写的， 不好意思是英文。。。同学们如果觉得好的话我
: 可以自行翻译的说。。。
: Oct. 5, 2011, 3:39 pm. I was sitting on the terrace outside the
: library, chatting with a teammate and enjoying the beautiful fall sunshine.
: My mom emailed. Grandma died, she said.
: My grandma was born in 1914. She died at the age of 97. A very long,
: painful death. I was sad, but I was also relieved. Finally it was over.
: This is called "closure".
: When I was in primary school, she came to live with us for a few years. She
: was in her seventies back then. A very clean, communicative and high power
| f*******g
发帖数: 5309 | 9 很感动的文章，to be happy than seem happy,. | h**j
发帖数: 105 | 10 33岁说自己下半生的第一天，有点太早了吧！中年危机也轮不到这个年龄啊。叫我这些
年龄比你大，又还不愿意承认自己以踏入下半生的情何以堪呢？ | | | w********h
发帖数: 12367 | 11 抱有极大兴趣开始读,但颇失望.
给点意见,勿恼.
(1)主题不明确,或者说,题目所框定的未完成;
(2)语言需要进一步简化,有些罗嗦;
(3)最后的结论太轻飘飘,让人感觉头重脚轻,
live to be happy not seem to be happy,这感受太weak.
(4)文中有的指代不清楚,读者理解不了,比如girls,我知道是你女儿,
但一开始就用这个词,有confusing.
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She
power
【在 q***8 的大作中提到】
: 这是老乔也是我姥姥去世那天写的， 不好意思是英文。。。同学们如果觉得好的话我
: 可以自行翻译的说。。。
: Oct. 5, 2011, 3:39 pm. I was sitting on the terrace outside the
: library, chatting with a teammate and enjoying the beautiful fall sunshine.
: My mom emailed. Grandma died, she said.
: My grandma was born in 1914. She died at the age of 97. A very long,
: painful death. I was sad, but I was also relieved. Finally it was over.
: This is called "closure".
: When I was in primary school, she came to live with us for a few years. She
: was in her seventies back then. A very clean, communicative and high power
| b*********l
发帖数: 1443 | 12 对于生死我想很多人都有类似的理解过程,不同的是你把它写了下来.谢谢分享.
way to go....
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She
power
【在 q***8 的大作中提到】
: 这是老乔也是我姥姥去世那天写的， 不好意思是英文。。。同学们如果觉得好的话我
: 可以自行翻译的说。。。
: Oct. 5, 2011, 3:39 pm. I was sitting on the terrace outside the
: library, chatting with a teammate and enjoying the beautiful fall sunshine.
: My mom emailed. Grandma died, she said.
: My grandma was born in 1914. She died at the age of 97. A very long,
: painful death. I was sad, but I was also relieved. Finally it was over.
: This is called "closure".
: When I was in primary school, she came to live with us for a few years. She
: was in her seventies back then. A very clean, communicative and high power
| u**e
发帖数: 177 | 13 Seems profound but rather decorative. Good command of English though.
What is your late grandma's journey and sacrifice bringing up her family? It
is quite a shame using this piece to celebrate her passing.
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She
power
【在 q***8 的大作中提到】
: 这是老乔也是我姥姥去世那天写的， 不好意思是英文。。。同学们如果觉得好的话我
: 可以自行翻译的说。。。
: Oct. 5, 2011, 3:39 pm. I was sitting on the terrace outside the
: library, chatting with a teammate and enjoying the beautiful fall sunshine.
: My mom emailed. Grandma died, she said.
: My grandma was born in 1914. She died at the age of 97. A very long,
: painful death. I was sad, but I was also relieved. Finally it was over.
: This is called "closure".
: When I was in primary school, she came to live with us for a few years. She
: was in her seventies back then. A very clean, communicative and high power
| f***5
发帖数: 1569 | | f*****9
发帖数: 6768 | 15 帮你翻译了一下， 让大家都有机会欣赏:
This is also my grandmother died the day Joe wrote, I am sorry in English. .
. If students feel good, then I
Free to translate said. . .
2011年10月5日，下午03:39。我坐在外面的露台
库，与队友聊天，欣赏美丽的秋天的阳光。
我的妈妈电邮。奶奶死了，她说。
我的祖母出生于1914年。她去世，享年97岁。很长，
痛苦的死亡。我很伤心，但我也松了口气。最后结束了。
这就是所谓的“封闭”。
当我在小学的时候，她来到与我们生活了几年。她
当时是在她70。一个非常干净的，交际和高功率
小姐。她会命令我的妈妈：“叔叔来访问我们从很远。
我们应该给他用丰厚的礼品。“我妈妈会服从不
任何异议。我记得我的爸爸，有时生气她的权威。
但老太太进行，无所畏惧。
但她很害怕死亡。她会教我如何SEW为女孩的东西
应该做的，同时告诉我她的恐惧。 “多么美妙的世界... ...当在
死了，所有这些颜色，气味，声音跟你无关。你死了
孤独，黑暗...一个多么可怕的事情... ...“她会杂音。
去世超过20年后，那些关于死亡的痛苦思考
她的头脑。
我去辛劳一天后回家，在学校的小组会议和审查
会议。我告诉女孩，“伟大的祖母去世了。” “哦，就像
爷爷没有？“他们问。”她也被烧坏了一个小
框？“女孩经历了我父亲的去世。，所以至少他们知道什么
它是。我没有。我的父亲去世，我是第一个也是唯一的一个
我的亲人之间，不断经历。持有你所爱的的感觉
在一个盒子里的灰。无法描述是多么痛苦。
我决定采取午睡前审查为明天的我的会计记录
测验。下午9:30左右，我醒来的时候看着我的手机。史蒂夫乔布斯死了。
我不知道为什么悲伤突然打我。
我恳求主让我奶奶去了几个月，甚至几年。我不
想死，像她那样。我会结束我自己的痛苦长
很久以前。
我也并不认为我那么多关心关于史蒂夫。是的，我可能会结束
成立工作，为公司和我整个夏天都住在Cupertino。
是的，我看到他拖过他的身体几乎fleshless苹果校园。
是的，他们曾经告诉我们，他会向我们诉说着，然后取消最后
分钟。但仍然，悲伤打我超过它应该有。
我不知道为什么，我开始浏览史蒂夫曾经说过的所有的东西。
之类的东西，按照你的心脏。之类的东西找到你所爱，既为
你的个人生活和你的职业生涯，并没有解决。想留事情
饥饿，保持愚蠢。喜欢什么如果明天的东西，这是你的最后一天
生活。眼泪差点去了。
最近我一直在批评集中于“我”太多。但我也知道
，我一直忽视多年的“我”，因此我却高兴不起来。大多数
重要的是，我知道，我一直在试图寻找幸福，我知道如何
它认为，当我找到它，就像史蒂夫把它。
我的祖母活了97年。这是wayyyyyy对我来说太长。我的父亲生活
60年。这是正确的。史蒂夫活了56岁，有点太短了，但
长度不是最重要的。它的强度，计数。我33岁，并没有
计划，对生活很长的考虑我的生活方式和我的情绪
波动。说我一半的方式。那么，明天，明天是
第一天我生命中的另一半。
我想住我的生命发挥到极致。我想我爱的，
做我的爱。我不会解决。我不会尝试再次愚弄自己
假装我很高兴的时候，我其实并不。我不会工作
金钱或名誉。我不会在乎别人怎么想，它应该
是。我会听我的心脏。
我的女儿教我今天在北卡罗莱纳州的座右铭，“Esse品牌邓肯
Videri "---"不是显得“非常深刻的。对于我的另一半
生活中，我宁愿高兴比似乎高兴。 | a*****m
发帖数: 201 | | b*****a
发帖数: 1732 | 17 写得真是不错，我第一次读周围中国人写的英文能够读出情感共鸣来。
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She
power
【在 q***8 的大作中提到】
: 这是老乔也是我姥姥去世那天写的， 不好意思是英文。。。同学们如果觉得好的话我
: 可以自行翻译的说。。。
: Oct. 5, 2011, 3:39 pm. I was sitting on the terrace outside the
: library, chatting with a teammate and enjoying the beautiful fall sunshine.
: My mom emailed. Grandma died, she said.
: My grandma was born in 1914. She died at the age of 97. A very long,
: painful death. I was sad, but I was also relieved. Finally it was over.
: This is called "closure".
: When I was in primary school, she came to live with us for a few years. She
: was in her seventies back then. A very clean, communicative and high power
| c********e
发帖数: 6158 | 18 happy birthday!
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She
power
【在 q***8 的大作中提到】
: 这是老乔也是我姥姥去世那天写的， 不好意思是英文。。。同学们如果觉得好的话我
: 可以自行翻译的说。。。
: Oct. 5, 2011, 3:39 pm. I was sitting on the terrace outside the
: library, chatting with a teammate and enjoying the beautiful fall sunshine.
: My mom emailed. Grandma died, she said.
: My grandma was born in 1914. She died at the age of 97. A very long,
: painful death. I was sad, but I was also relieved. Finally it was over.
: This is called "closure".
: When I was in primary school, she came to live with us for a few years. She
: was in her seventies back then. A very clean, communicative and high power
| b******x
发帖数: 826 | 19 祖母好歹是我的家人，没有她那里会有我的家庭，那里会有我？
Steve Job再如何，也不是我的家人
如果是我，我会更怀念祖母 | g********x
发帖数: 4671 | 20 Nice article, thank you. | | | S****9
发帖数: 8108 | 21 LZ写的不错。亲人骤逝，名人骤逝，自己生日在即，这些极端情感的碰撞是会激发思考
的，值得记录下来，即使未必真的就是个里程碑。心灵的成长是线性的，包括各种习惯
，并不以一夜之间的意志为转移。但这样的思考多了，行为就会改变。转去我们
AUDIOBOOK版了，欢迎去玩:
http://www.mitbbs.com/bbsdoc/AudioBook.html | T*******y
发帖数: 6523 | 22 Nice article, and I especially liked your conclusion to be happy rather than
seem happy.
Well, as to death, it might not be what your grandma feared. It's too sad an
experience for her to dread this for 20 years.
"She died more than 20 years after having those agonizing thoughts about
death on her mind."
I recommend two books by Brian Weiss, "Many lives, many masters" and "Only
love is real". | J*******k
发帖数: 3298 | 23 pat pat，写得很好！
不过从说到做也许还有很长的距离。。。。。
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She
power
【在 q***8 的大作中提到】
: 这是老乔也是我姥姥去世那天写的， 不好意思是英文。。。同学们如果觉得好的话我
: 可以自行翻译的说。。。
: Oct. 5, 2011, 3:39 pm. I was sitting on the terrace outside the
: library, chatting with a teammate and enjoying the beautiful fall sunshine.
: My mom emailed. Grandma died, she said.
: My grandma was born in 1914. She died at the age of 97. A very long,
: painful death. I was sad, but I was also relieved. Finally it was over.
: This is called "closure".
: When I was in primary school, she came to live with us for a few years. She
: was in her seventies back then. A very clean, communicative and high power
| m***8
发帖数: 7797 | | s*********8
发帖数: 1630 | 25 Good writing, particularly it is English. Appreciated.
Life is so short, children are growing and we are getting old like in one
day. It was just like yesterday while I was still holding my little baby,
and today she is a junior high school student who can share my shirt and
skirt.
I am gonna to buy more disability and life insurance, I guess it is my way
to think about the death. No one can beat the death, but I wish my family
can still live happily and safely w/o me. |
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